Today was my last teaching day. I just have a staff meeting to attend tomorrow and then my long-term substitute assignment is complete. I am glad to be done. I will still go in and help out each day until the winter break, but I won't be in charge and that will make all of the difference. No bringing home assignments to grade, no putting together lesson plans, no planning projects or assignments. From now on, "it's not my problem!"
I learned a lot through this experience. I don't think I'm cut out to be an elementary school teacher, certainly not for grades K through 3rd. I just don't have the patience for it. If educational assistants weren't paid less than substitutes, I'd happily do that. I'd love to work in a classroom without being in charge of that class, to walk in and have the teacher say "here, do this with that kid today" and then be able to leave without bringing home 2 to 3 hours of extra work in preparation for the next day. Actually, I didn't really mind the preparation. It was working with kids who don't follow directions, who talk when I'm talking even though I've already told them twice to stop, who forget to bring their homework to school, who look at me as if I'm speaking Greek when I explain what they're supposed to do - that's what I minded. And I imagine that I'd encounter that no matter what grade I taught, so I think I've learned that teaching isn't for me. Maybe I should just stick with homeschooling my 3 kids and leave the "real" teaching to the professionals who have patience.